mcKelle Ryan

Although McKelle will be 8 months on the 13th, here are some of the things she does, and has learned throughout month 7. She loves sitting up, and thinks that she is a big girl, and indeed she is. Although she rocks back and fourth she seems to be completely content on doing the army crawl, she loves it, and goes so many places. It is darling and I love it! She loves to stand, and thinks its perfectly fine to start taking those steps to get her to where she wants to go, (us holding her hands of course). She smiles, laughs, talks, and blows raspberries all the time, and is such a happy little girl! She always wakes up very happy...most of the time I don't even know she is awake, til she starts talking and playing, and then when I go to get her out of her crib, she just looks and me and gets so excited!! It is only one of the highlights of my day!! I love this little girl!!! How lucky am I!!!

10 years ago..

It was 10 years ago that I was again blessed enough, to welcome an angel into my arms for a short time. Kyle Robert was born January 23rd, 2000, and lived for 10 hours. He was absolutely beautiful with golden skin, and tight little blonde corkscrew curls. I was told that his dad had the same hair, I loved it. And I love him so much. We knew with this little guy, that we would not be able to raise him at this time. We spent as much time holding and loving him as we could. All too soon, it was time for him to leave us. The days that followed were kind of a blur, I remember after his burial, as people were leaving, I was still standing there, my dad came to me and said," it's time to say goodbye", and all I could say was, "I don't know how". But I can say, that I was and am so thankful for the knowledge I have of the gospel in my life. It helped me through the most difficult times and trials in my life. And I am so blessed to have known and to be able to raise 3 perfect angels!

Oh how time fies when you're having fun...

I can't believe that McKelle is 6 months already! She had her 6 month appointment today and is 14 pounds 13 ounces, and 26 inches. 27 percentile in weight, and 51 percentile in length. She is growing so much and is such a joy! She rolls all over the place, and sometimes I truly wonder how she got where she ends up. She sits up, and she grabs for everything! She loves baby food, and surprisingly, at this point she likes vegetables more then fruit. She loves pushing toys out of her reach, and then gets mad when she has to work at getting to them again. She lifts herself up on her hands, her arms completely straight, or she'll push up on her knees, but she hasn't quite mastered doing it at the same time, to learn to crawl yet. She loves her exersaucer, bouncer and swing. She still sleeps through the night, and I love it when I go in when she wakes up and she looks up at me and gets the biggest grin and starts kicking with excitement, and I couldn't be happier being her mom. It still amazes me at how blessed I am to have this little darling in my life. She is the love of our lives.

Christmas...2009

We celebrated Christmas early this year, because my younger brother was to leave for the MTC on the 23rd of December, we later learned that they wanted him to enter on the 16th instead. Luckily my sister and her family were able to make it, even though it was a whole week earlier than planned. He had is farewell on the 13th, and it was fabulous. We then decided to have Christmas on the 12th so that he could be there with us. We had a great time. McKelle was fun to watch, she of course got spoiled, and loved the wrapping paper! It was fun watching her have her first Christmas, even though she of course had no real understanding of what was going on, you could still see that she liked her new toys and books! We then got to have a small Christmas with Alex's family on Christmas day, and that too was so much fun! We also decided to go to Alvin and the Chipmunks the Squeakual, it was a cute movie, and McKelle loved dancing to the music, she really seemed to like it haha. Christmas time was great this year, spending with family and getting to see those that I don't get to see as often as I would like, I miss my sister and her family when they aren't here. I sure am going to miss my younger brother, but those in Brazil are sure going to be lucky to have him.

4 month stats...

Weight: 12 pounds, 9 ounces
Length: 25.3 inches

My heart took a picture.

On November 10th, 2001, my little one Bradley Kay was born. We had a lot of hope for this little guy, because up until the day I had him, we were told that this one was different then my other two, who were born with Potters Syndrome, a disease where you are unable to develop kidneys, and therefore lungs. On the morning of November 10th my water broke, that alone was different then both Joy and Kyle, but when we got there, they wanted to do one other ultrasound just in case, so that they would be prepared for any problems. So we did the ultrasound and it was then that we learned that everything had deteriorated, so what had been developing was no more. Even then I would not believe that anything was wrong. Soon enough it was time to have him, he of course was beautiful. But right away we all knew that he was not going to make it. I think of all of them often, but some days do hit harder. What a true true blessing McKelle is, I just love her so much! (Wonder if she knew her brothers and sister). Two and half hours after he was born, he took his last breath, and as he was slipping away, my heart took a picture.

The Joy of Laughter!

McKelle started laughing a couple of weeks ago, and it is the most beautiful sound. It is like a song, that you never want to forget, and want to put on repeat!