Memorial Day..

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remember when I was younger, I always looked forward to Memorial Day, even the grave hopping. After we went to visit all the graves, we would get together and have a picnic of some sort. Usually it is a day that does not shine, but rains. Even so we would get a blanket and set out a picnic on our living room floor, and still have a picnic/BBQ, rain or shine. Now it is just another day, one that I can not help thinking about three little angels that I pray continue to look down on me. In March of 1999, my little girl Joy was born, she was what you would call stillborn. January of 2000, my little son Kyle was born, he lived for 10 wonderful, but very short hours. And then November of 2001, another son Bradley was born, who let us be with him for 2 and a half hours. They are all buried at the Milbourne Cemetery, by Ft.Bridger, and Mt. View Wyoming. I very rarely make it there on Memorial Day, but am thankful, because they are still being taken care of. I have a very good friend that makes things for them almost every year, I still have the things she makes, and it amazes me of the thought and care she puts into those crafts for them, and for me. This year, once again I will not be making it home for Memorial Day, but they are as of often on my mind, and in my heart. I miss them with everything that is in me, even though I had a very short time with them. This year I have the blessing of feeling a little one growing and moving in me, she will be born in July and I can not wait to meet her. Thanks to all of you for the love and support I have always felt from every one of you. I sincerely love you all very much!

Baby!

In November, we found out that I was pregnant, initial reaction for me was complete nervousness. But boy can I tell you that I was very very excited as well. I felt that Alex, and I as well, deserved the chance to become parents, although it was a fear I had, and felt it would be all to easy to keep putting it off and never trying. In the past, I was told that it was just mine and my ex-husbands genes together just didn't mesh, and that together we were missing a chromosome. So with much praying decided to go ahead and give it a try with, and for Alex, not to mention for myself. The doctors appointments continued to go well, and with the 4th month ultrasound, where you can find out what you are having, I was scared out of my mind, because in the past that is also the ultrasound where we would find out not all was well with our little ones. But I found that things were just fine! The ultrasound turned out as it should be, and Alex and I found out we are having a little girl, due July 23rd! So we are are at the count down with only two more months left, and am both very excited, and can not wait to meet our little girl, who we are planning to name McKelle Ryan. It's a very happy time for all of us, and thanks to all of you for your thoughts and prayers!

New York-August 2008

I vaguely remember writing that first blog about a year ago, didn't think about it since. Here is what has kinda been happening since then. That August in 2008, during our first anniversary, Alex, Quinn, Ryan and I all went to New York. We really had a lot of fun, a lot of running around. We only had a few days to get everything in, but with Ryan's help we were able to enjoy the best that New York had to offer. We really had a great time, going to central park, going to the top of the Empire State Building, taking a boat ride around, so that we could see the Statue of Liberty, among other great sitings. Ryan and I were able to go to the Broadway Play Lion King, it was wonderful. Quinn and Alex went to a Yankees game and loved it!